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[21 Jun 2008|02:52am] |
i didn't need a lover or a girlfriend or sleeping partner or a friend or a friend, who possessed benefits.
i just needed someone.
anyone.
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[08 Jun 2008|11:15pm] |
she's the tear that hangs inside my soul forever
Well maybe i'm just too young
To keep good love from going wrong
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[04 Jun 2008|12:41am] |
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with a few words, choice and powerful, it was over. i walked away, folded my cards, closed the chapter, or whatever you want to call it on the longest running thing in my life. i saved face and said we would be friends, but i don't know if we actually can. its easy to say, but harder to do. for me, at least.
i did love you. with every ounce of me in this american heart i have. at one point we did live for each other. sometimes i needed you more than you needed me and sometimes you needed me more than i needed you. it was cyclical. it was dependency. it was a whole lot of something.
i stuffed every old picture and selected memory in ten by fifteen walls of concrete. i didn't know whether or not to burn it. it wasn't one of those break ups, i suppose. it was mutual and overdue.
i'm not miserable. or at least i don't think i am. just mildly surprised at all the feelings. heaven knows nick drake isn't helping much.
Time has told me
You're a rare rare find
A troubled cure
For a troubled mind.
And time has told me
Not to ask for more
For some day our ocean
Will find its shore.
when two people are so hopelessly in love with each other and then are separated, it tends to get rather rough on the heart.
things move slower.
colors are less bright.
people talk faster.
i think its good we have disjointed. at least now, we can really live to seek love we deserve. we can be selfish with are hearts.
god bless the eyes i woke up to.
god save the lips i tasted and cursed.
god follow the legs i grazed.
god hold the hands that held me.
god heal the heart i hurt.
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[09 Apr 2008|09:53am] |
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i hate doing all the work. you make it work.
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[25 Dec 2007|11:49pm] |
don't get mad at someone who falls asleep after he spends his whole day with you and your family.
just sayin.
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[29 Nov 2007|08:26pm] |
i
don't
think
i've loved
you more
than
i do now.
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[08 Nov 2007|04:13pm] |
i love school. i may hate it at times, but i really do love it. i don't understand a lot of it and it takes a lot of my time, but i can't help feeling like it's just a huge stepping stone to better things. inherently, it should be, i guess, but i can understand why some people wouldn't want to pursue it. i like the idea of order. i hate surprises. i do. a lot. i want to be told what's next because it's safer that way. you would hate a pop quiz. i wouldn't because i love school. all i know right now is that i drink (again) and im thinking of stopping (again) and i need a job somewhere. i also am hoping this stat test won't be too bad.
i wish it wasn't so busy, but its college....what are you going to do?
how's rome
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[30 Oct 2007|09:32am] |
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i think i just needed time to think and ive come to the conclusion that i can only think about how we can make it better.
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[29 Oct 2007|08:43pm] |
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maybe we were fooling each other this whole fucking time.
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[18 Oct 2007|09:38am] |
im considering a big career change.
i want to become a lawyer.
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[04 Aug 2007|12:39pm] |
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sometimes it just hits me that she's all mine and god damn what a feeling
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[04 Aug 2007|10:46am] |
my life consists of building this god damn bike and loving this girl. i couldnt be happier to be so dedicated to both of these loves.
my summer's ending rather quickly andi cant help to be so excites for school. im not one for staying up late to last minute essays, but i feel like my mind hasnt been so stimulated as of late. as an aspiring teacher and writer, this may be proved to be- HOLY SHIT IM WATCHING ELIZABETHTOWN AND THEY JUST STARTED PLAYING FREEBIRD AND LEGOLAS JUST CALLED MARY JANE PARKER ON HER FAKE BOYFRIEND. speaking of which this movie has a butt load of "clarity shots" (camera shots where they just have the character in frame and he/she are sighing or just looking out in the distance or smiling).
im really loving life right now.
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[13 May 2007|03:36am] |
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wow suddenly i miss everybody
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[12 May 2007|10:53am] |
a lot good friends are graduating and said friends are also breaking my bike.
i make really good older friends.
i am in love with nicole tracy because holding her before she sleeps makes anywhere feel like im home
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[17 Apr 2007|11:59pm] |
so i get this way rarely. its usually a feeling of hopelessness and it brings me back to the first time i tried to ride a bike and couldn't keep balance. all the kids moved faster and further and i just stayed. summer suns set and i stood still, while the kids kept going.
some people dont know how to fix mistakes and who could blame them. however, ive concluded a number of things in the past 24 hrs:
- the truth sometimes does not set you free
- love, apparently, has its boundaries
- sticking to what you've believed will get you in trouble
- you can break a heart twice
- apparently, namecalling and silence are the new black
- my roommate chews like a fucking horse.
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[09 Feb 2007|12:40pm] |
don't give me a kiss goodbye
give me a kiss hello
i can wait for that day
i can
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[06 Feb 2007|11:31am] |
im the voice that never sings.
i wish you were my song.
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[01 Dec 2006|10:42am] |
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its like throwing something in the air that's finally making its descent...
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[25 Nov 2006|11:58am] |
i just watched an episode of boy meets world about alcoholism.
i feel shitty.
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[01 Oct 2006|02:32am] |
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i kill myself worrying so much about you.
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